Adventurer of Vana&#39;Diel

[Oh hi Castiel, Reno's still sitting on Cat's bed.]

So... You're like a SOLDIER, but instead of just bein' stronger and faster and damn hard to kill you absorb magic?

[He frowned, nodding a little.]

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[Castiel gives Reno a quick nod of acknowledgment before taking position against the wall next to the door.]

Soulflayer? Is that name meant to be taken literally or is it just a symbolic name?

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[She blinks at the questions, a little surprised but she quickly composes herself and moves to her dresser to find the image of the monster.]

For those who are able to complete the final task, yes.

[It took her a moment to think about Castiel's question.]

I believe it is to be literal. A body of man with a face of tentacles. Ah, here it is.

[She pulled out the photograph (http://images2.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20090221223509/ffxi/images/f/fa/Soulflayer.png) and showed it to the duo.]

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[Ew, okay. That's kinda creepy.]

There's uh... one problem with this whole plan Cat. The system brings you back the way you were before you died.

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[WTF is that. 8U]

Unfortunately, he is correct, Cat. Is there any other way it can be handled?

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[She put the image away before closing the dresser. She didn't realize that if she was killed, she would remain a monster.]

Then... I really have no hope do I?

[Her voice cracked, her shoulders trembling as her fingers tightened on the handles. It takes her a moment to calm the tears forming in her eyes, keeping her back to both of them, trying to think of some other way. She would hate it but it was the only way.]

...A cage of sorts. What you used on me before during Brenner, Reno or I am left to wander the Carnival forever.

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Hey hey, don't think like that Cat.

[He's standing and crossing to her, screw Castiel being there. He's going to hug her anyway.]

So you've got to face yourself right? Who knows you better than yourself? Nobody. Hell, you'll probably wipe the floor with yourself.

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[Castiel's fine with that, he fails at being comforting.]

I would prefer that we not resort to such drastic measures if at all possible.

But he is right. There is always a possibility that you will not lose control.

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I know, that's why I was... taking a while to call for your audience.

[She let out a shakey sigh.]

...Its not the first time I've struggled with something like this. Do... either of you recall the time I had a breakdown in the caves that was sent out on the linkshells?

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[Right before he'd died the first time yeah.]

I do.

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[Castiel nods.]

I remember.

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[She inhaled a little and pulled away from the dresser, but remained close to Reno.]

It was regarding a certain negative emotion for each race. For mine, it was envy. It was... ridiculous of me to think that.

[She sighed.]

But... this is way more concerning than that. Especially when I've experienced several nightmares where I've lost control and killed everyone that I cared about.

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I still don't see any reason why you can't win Cat.

[Reno sighed, crossing his arms.]

I think you need to have a little more faith in yourself an' what you've gotten through. I mean... we all just fought a massive horde of little birds that were hell bent on killing every single one of us. Takes someone tough to fight that off.

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Cat, worrying about this will not help any. At the very least, should something happen, there are plenty of people who should be able to help.

[Castiel is kind of out of his league here, and it obvious in the slightly helpless look on his face.]

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Of course and I'll try not to.

[She managed a small smile as her ears raised back up and a bit of life returned to her tail.]

I apologize for wasting time for both of you; but, thank you for your imput. It helped, a little bit.

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Hey, you weren't wasting our time. I'll help however you need me to, alright?

[And he won't take no for an answer either.]

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Are you sure?

[She glanced to the both of them, making sure.]

Thank you Reno, it... means a lot to me.

[Although her ears drop for a moment, recalling the conversation with Kevas. She... would need to bring that up with him and Greed at some point.]

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Hey, I'd be a pretty terrible person if I didn't help the lady I liked.

[He winked, nudging her a little.]

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[Castiel just...stares, looking uncomfortable.]

Do not worry, Cat. We will always be here if you need anything.

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