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[The recording starts out with a bit of silence, before there's sound of movement, a rustle of armor before the Mithra speaks. She sounds somewhat horrible and a tad on the tired side.]

Reno, Veld, Castiel. I would like to request your audience very soon, at my room.

[A pause.]

Kevas, I... I need to apologize about my reaction to your words. I'm also apologizing for not including you, even though I asked before; there's a reason behind this. I am... so sorry.

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[The mage nods a little before reaching up to the back of her neck, her glove scratching at the tattoo that was there.]

Thank you, but... You're not going to like what I'm going to tell and request of you. I'm sorry that I have to make you, Veld and Castiel have to deal with this.

I don't like what a lotta people tell me, doesn't mean anythin' changes Cat. I've had to do a lotta things I don't like back home, so I'm pretty used to it.

[She's about to say something, but is interrupted by her communicator before she quickly replies to Castiel with a sad smile on her face.]

Yes. That seems to be the case.

[Her grip tightens on the device as she bites down on her lip a little.]

I... I really don't want to request this.

[He sighs, scooting back on the bed a bit and looking at her with raised eyebrows.]

Cat, I like you. A lot. Whatever you've got to ask me I'll do it. Even if I'm gonna hate doin' it, 'cause it's you asking alright?

[Her yellow eyes look over to Reno's for a moment before she drops her head down.]

Even if that request is my death?

[He paused, looking at his knees for a moment.]

That would depend on the reason why.

It wouldn't be right now, there is a reason for it.

[She placed her communicator to her side before turning her back to the Turk, lowering her head a bit as she lifted up her hair that covered the mark of Zahak; a snake connected together with heads on either end.

Although, she's interrupted again and replies back to the angel of Thursday before continuing.]

...I was experimented on because I accepted a quest to become a Blue Mage, but... I never thought it could transform a person in to a monster.

Hey. Don't talk like that, you're not a monster.

[gah, she sounds just like Vincent.]

I kinda like the whole ears an' tail thing. It's cute on you, I mean... I couldn't pull it off at all.

[Knock knock! Guess who?]

Cat?

[A small laugh escapes her mouth and a temporary smile is on her face.]

I've always had my ears and tails, as long as I could remember.

[At the knock, the Mithra quickly moves to her feet to let Castiel in.]

Thanks for coming, Castiel.

[She looks up to the angel before returning her gaze to Reno. It was time to get down to business, she couldn't help but scratch at her tattoo on the back of her neck.]

...The mark that is on my neck, all Blue Mages have it but in different places; it allows them to absorb spells or abilities that monsters use and cast them as their own. Although there was a risk, if either the user looses control of their magic or... can't face their 'inner beast' to be accepted as an Immortal; they become a Soulflayer. My friend and I were forced to kill someone we did not know, who lost his humanity and was driven mad by his magic.

[Oh hi Castiel, Reno's still sitting on Cat's bed.]

So... You're like a SOLDIER, but instead of just bein' stronger and faster and damn hard to kill you absorb magic?

[He frowned, nodding a little.]

[Castiel gives Reno a quick nod of acknowledgment before taking position against the wall next to the door.]

Soulflayer? Is that name meant to be taken literally or is it just a symbolic name?

[She blinks at the questions, a little surprised but she quickly composes herself and moves to her dresser to find the image of the monster.]

For those who are able to complete the final task, yes.

[It took her a moment to think about Castiel's question.]

I believe it is to be literal. A body of man with a face of tentacles. Ah, here it is.

[She pulled out the photograph (http://images2.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20090221223509/ffxi/images/f/fa/Soulflayer.png) and showed it to the duo.]

[Ew, okay. That's kinda creepy.]

There's uh... one problem with this whole plan Cat. The system brings you back the way you were before you died.

[WTF is that. 8U]

Unfortunately, he is correct, Cat. Is there any other way it can be handled?

[She put the image away before closing the dresser. She didn't realize that if she was killed, she would remain a monster.]

Then... I really have no hope do I?

[Her voice cracked, her shoulders trembling as her fingers tightened on the handles. It takes her a moment to calm the tears forming in her eyes, keeping her back to both of them, trying to think of some other way. She would hate it but it was the only way.]

...A cage of sorts. What you used on me before during Brenner, Reno or I am left to wander the Carnival forever.

Hey hey, don't think like that Cat.

[He's standing and crossing to her, screw Castiel being there. He's going to hug her anyway.]

So you've got to face yourself right? Who knows you better than yourself? Nobody. Hell, you'll probably wipe the floor with yourself.

[Castiel's fine with that, he fails at being comforting.]

I would prefer that we not resort to such drastic measures if at all possible.

But he is right. There is always a possibility that you will not lose control.

I know, that's why I was... taking a while to call for your audience.

[She let out a shakey sigh.]

...Its not the first time I've struggled with something like this. Do... either of you recall the time I had a breakdown in the caves that was sent out on the linkshells?

[Right before he'd died the first time yeah.]

I do.

[Castiel nods.]

I remember.

[She inhaled a little and pulled away from the dresser, but remained close to Reno.]

It was regarding a certain negative emotion for each race. For mine, it was envy. It was... ridiculous of me to think that.

[She sighed.]

But... this is way more concerning than that. Especially when I've experienced several nightmares where I've lost control and killed everyone that I cared about.

I still don't see any reason why you can't win Cat.

[Reno sighed, crossing his arms.]

I think you need to have a little more faith in yourself an' what you've gotten through. I mean... we all just fought a massive horde of little birds that were hell bent on killing every single one of us. Takes someone tough to fight that off.

Cat, worrying about this will not help any. At the very least, should something happen, there are plenty of people who should be able to help.

[Castiel is kind of out of his league here, and it obvious in the slightly helpless look on his face.]

Of course and I'll try not to.

[She managed a small smile as her ears raised back up and a bit of life returned to her tail.]

I apologize for wasting time for both of you; but, thank you for your imput. It helped, a little bit.

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